Purple39💜Nick’s Light
The meaning behind Purple39
Love, Loss, & Light
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On March 20, 2024, our son, Nick, left this world far too soon.
Nick was pure light in human form — kind, creative, and deeply sensitive to the beauty of the world and the hearts of others. The same tenderness that made him extraordinary also made life feel heavy at times.
When he passed, my world stopped. Everything I believed about life, love, and faith was undone in an instant.
In the months, and years that followed I searched endlessly — for him, for peace, for meaning — and somehow, through that pain, something sacred began to awaken.
I started to see that the love we share doesn’t end; it simply changes form. The energy that connects us — the light that animates all things — doesn’t disappear. It transforms.​
The Meaning Behind Purple39
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Purple was Nick’s favorite color — the color of connection, higher love, and divine energy.
The number 39 was his lacrosse number — one he wore with pride and joy. After he passed, purple and 39 became symbols carried by his family, friends, and teammates: #39Forever.
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Together, they became more than a tribute. Purple 39 became a living reminder that love is eternal — that even through loss, light continues to guide, comfort, and teach us.
Reiki Found Me
In My Search for Healing
I came into this practice the same way many seekers do — through profound loss that shattered the way I understood everything. I came to energy work during a time when I was trying to understand life in a new way.
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After losing our son, Nick, I found myself asking questions I never had before — about healing, mental health, and the deeper layers of being human, and what exists at the soul level of our being. My mother-in-law, Debbie, passed just a year before Nick. Their struggles were not the same, but both losses revealed how much unseen weight people carry — weight they were never meant to hold alone. I often think about how energy work might have eased their pain or offered even a moment of lightness. I can’t change what happened, but I can honor them by offering what I wish they could have felt more often: calm, acceptance, and the knowing that they were never alone.
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As I searched for answers for myself and for others like Nick and Debbie, I wasn’t sure if anything could answer my questions… and then Reiki found me. It opened a door I didn’t know existed — a way to help people feel seen, supported, and reconnected to the part of themselves that life can wear down.
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The more I explored energy, the more I realized that healing isn’t only about the mind. It also includes the soul - the subtle energy that shapes how we think, feel, and guides us in this human experience. Reiki became more than a practice — it became a bridge between faith and understanding. It showed me that healing isn’t “fixing” what’s broken; it’s remembering what is still whole. It helped me see that mental and emotional suffering is energy in motion (E-MOTION) — and that support must reach beyond the mind to include the spirit.
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A Living Legacy
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Nick’s love became my compass. His memory, my courage. And his light continues to guide me — in the gentle nudges, the undeniable signs, and the moments that remind me what truly matters: to live with love, grace, and gratitude. Through him, I’ve learned that energy is the language of love. It’s how our souls speak when words fall short. It moves through us, between us, and beyond us — connecting everything in ways we may never fully understand.
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My hope is that through this practice, anyone who struggles — like Nick, like Debbie, like myself, and so many quietly carrying pain — can find a moment of calm, a breath of peace, and the strength to begin again.
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Reiki, to me, is the art of letting love flow — the purest expression of compassion, faith, and light. It’s a reminder that
we are all connected, all part of something infinite, and that every act of love lifts the vibration of our world just a little higher.
